CyberGuard-17 Daniel Duran Writes Why Everything
went wrong in his life and what saved him – 12 Minute Read
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Peter Worthington has written and taught us about human living in this world. He got
A lot of his wisdom from Xavier Carlotti who is very close to him. I found out the hard way.
I was a totally arrogant person many years ago. I never said ‘thank you’ to anyone who
was important – and I never said ‘forgive me’ to anyone or ‘I’m sorry’ – For 26 years. And
In those 26 years I had gobs of opportunity. I never even thought about God. Many times I
Would Say ‘what God?” ..and laughed. When I went after someone or something – I would forget the most important people to me – my real friends, my mentors, and most of all – I would say “look what I did!!!”… I Gave myself all the friggin’ credit. I was a total asshole. I was always horny while growing up, admiring my sexual prowess, huge weenie, and my unbelievable sexual scent that Guys could not resist. I started going to bars at age 16 because I looked older, and I always had my fake ID ready, and was always looking for my next pickup. Between age 16 and 26 estimated I hooked up with about 100 guys a month. Maybe more. People would try to advise me to ‘be careful’ and some spiritual people would say they were ‘praying for me’. I laughed at them for the most part. All my young life wanted to be on TV, movies, videos, so I went sniffing around the entertainment Industry. I got small parts in movies and TV stints. But what really pissed me off was that my small parts were always written out to save money, or my part was just a guy standing around. I would have probably bigger roles in the industry because I was a good-looking guy (everyone would tell me that). I refused after A few directors and producers would tell me ‘I can get you into leading roles. Just come over to My home and we can talk’. I only did that one time. And no more. They were just trying to get into my pants. It was obvious when this older bloke is telling about the job while his hand was crawling up my leg. I just said ‘no thanks‘ and left. Hey, I might have been whoring around all over Canadian bars looking for guys, but I was not going to sell myself to sexual favors just for a movie part. Then came my first big kick I got in my life – right in to my gut. I lost my job and was having trouble finding new ones mainly due to my drinking as people told me I ‘drank like a fish’. Then, 1 month later, my Irish and very catholic mother kick me out of the house after find gay magazines under my bed. She said things to me that made me feel like dirt. My grandmother even told me she was‘ ashamed’ of me. I lost family support. My father told me to ‘go to hell’ after I phoned him for some help. He lived in Argentina, but we were never close. It seems my mother had told my father about the magazines she found – and my dad was uneducated and hated anyone associated with ‘gayness’. I told all of them to go And f—k themselves and went to go live in my car – for the next 7 months. I practically froze to death since I was living in Toronto at the time, but I had saved a little money to keep me going since losing my jobs and family support. Then in late 2016 I was on youtube looking at videos. I found some very old songs that sounded nice. I fell in love with old disco songs of the 1970s and 80s. They were uploaded by ‘the waltersjudsongroup’. I never heard of them. I did write to them when I found out they helped people in trouble and half of their staff were gay males. Their new Cyberguard director – Matthew Santori decided to hire me. I wanted to work In Canada, but he put me in Argentina in 2017. It was a great job. I knew a lot about computers and the net, and I begin to impress them – I told them I built my first computer out of scratch (which was true). They gave me a position making 35k (E) a year. It was good pay living out in Argentina. I learn to speak Spanish fast mainly because my father taught me when I was a kid, and he was originally from Madrid. My dad had migrated to Buenos Aires and I did make an attempt to visit him several times. He rejected me both times – the second time he aimed a gun at me. I was so scared I never went back to try to visit. Many CyberGuards at the Argentine Chapter talked to me at first, but after a few weeks, they stopped socializing with me. Some called me an asshole for being ‘foul mouthed’ and arrogant. When Canada begin to turn authoritarian, WJG closed their Canadian Chapters, and sent us 4 Guards – one of them was Michael Doel. I noticed he seemed to be interested in me – the first 30 days or so, then, afterward, he told me I was a ‘f ..king asshole, arrogant, and told me to stay away from him‘ – which was fine for me. Besides, even though Doel was good looking, his eyes seemed a bit out-of-focus sometimes like he was slightly demented – and those eyes were so dark. Like deer eyes or those of mean mouse. So Santori put us on opposite schedules to avoid each other. Santori had been one of my best friends and I asked him for a higher position. He said he was going to give the DARK WEB position to CyberGuard 2, Mitch Jordan – he was in Spain at the time. This guy was constantly called a midget because he was so short and small – and he also had Michael Doel’s dark deer eyes. Santori said Jordan was a ‘wizard’ at everything. I was pissed. I hated that midget Jordan. He was a good looking midget though, but I resented him – mainly because almost everyone loved this little guy.
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I ended up working with Jordan and I deliberately made his life miserable during work hours. Totally. I would even make him cry sometimes. Jordan filed complaints against me but Santori gave me a pass almost all the time. I would even get together with CyberGuard 6 and less often with Doel to make his little midget life a total nightmare at work – hoping he would quit and I would get his job. I was written up about 7 times and suspended twice for ‘torturing’ Jordan during work hours. Another higher position came up and again Santori snubbed me, and he gave it to Michael Doel. That made me sh-t my pants, and I made plans to ruin Santori. Ruin him so bad that he would leave his job humiliated. I did a video with a porn star that look practically like Santori’s twin – and used a little A.I forgery. I then uploaded it all over the net. It worked. I paid off the porn star. Santori was embarrassed when everyone thought he was making porn videos. He wanted to quit, but the bosses like David Edison and Dr. Medina made him stay. Though everyone could see the hurt look on Matthew ‘the lamb’ Santori’s face day after day. Later in 2020, my little brother was diagnosed with leukemia, and I was paying most of his bills. It was too cold for him in Canada, so they moved him to Argentina where treatment was lower priced and it was warmer for him. Early in 2021 the second kick came to my life – and it was a kick to my nuts. I was beginning to go broke. Literally. Between paying my brother’s medical bills, the drinking, the bars, and all those guys I had been wining and dining and screwing in my bed – it was talking a toll on my finances. Then to make things worse my brother was getting worse. Then in early 2021, Michael Doel tried to kill me. I mean really kill me – with a headlock. He was terribly strong at 6 feet 5, 220 pounds. I was thin, a measly 175 pounds at 6 feet. All because of some insult of carnitas (a pork meal) he purchased for me, and I rejected them. He called me a ‘patsy’ and a ‘tinkerbell’. That started the physical fight. After we were both separated I had suffered injuries to my neck. I missed almost 4 weeks of work. Eventually Doel came to visit me in my rat-infested 4-room paper house and apologized. I accepted. He didn’t get fired because the incident happened outside of work. But my life was beginning to completely disintegrate. Then my new boyfriend – Stephan Morkowski left me because he caught me with another guy about 6 weeks after my disastrous fight with Doel. Weird thing was that I didn’t do anything with that guy – then, 10 days later, my little brother died. All this happened within a 9 month span. I was not allowed to go to his funeral either. My family didn’t want me there. I started missing work early 2022. WJG sent 2 Associates to visit me since I never missed work before. They found me drunken, and ready to commit suicide. I didn’t want to live anymore. Too much mess in so little time had demolished my life. I had purchased box cutters to slit my wrists a day before. I had nothing. I was broke, sick, lost my brother, was in total debt, lost my new boyfriend and worst of all, the guy that given me my job – I betrayed him and ruined his life. My whole world came crashing down on me at my young age of 26. Associates Dr. Malloy and dentist Enrique Santos came to my rescue. Santos stayed with me around the clock that day. His even missed work to be with me. Malloy had also convinced bosses David Edison and Dr. Medina to help me and not fire me. Matthew Santori said he had forgiven me for ruining his life on the web. Slowly my finances were coming out of debt. It took almost a year. Michael Doel came to terms with me and admitted he ’always wanted me’. He became my domestic partner in late 2023. I had over 800 hours of therapy with Psychologist Edward Campos. My mother came to terms with me before she died in March. At least I had some time with her. Then, in 2024 I decided to let God in my slowly improving life. God told me to get Baptized. I got Baptized Sept. 30, 2025. I found peace in my life. God has forgiven me for my terrible deeds – and now I finally found the courage to do the hardest thing to do – forgive myself for my hateful deeds against those who had befriended me. On October 21, Michael was involved in an auto accident and he was not expected to survive. I stayed with him, and told God if He took Michael away, It will would be ok, because I would never be alone again. I had God in my heart. He will never abandon you. Never. So I thought about God while Michael was on life-support. Days later, Michael survived, after doctors said he wouldn’t. I had to write about this. I had to. God is real. God Loves me. He turned my worst enemy into my best friend in Michael. Mitch Jordan forgave me after I tortured him for years. Almost all the CyberGuards who hated me now had befriended me again. I thank God for coming to my rescue even though I was a trash-infested arrogant total jerk. Thank you so much dear God for loving such an undeserving human scum of a man and washing away my terrible deeds with your tears of forgiveness. – Daniel S Duran
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Note:
Daniel almost died of a deadly pneumonia strain in late November 2024. He barely survived. After he got Baptized Duran suffered many serious setbacks — His domestic partner was involved in fatal accident where 4 people were killed, but his partner survived. Then, 40 percent of his members left his support (after he was baptised) and 1 week later he admitted he was severly beaten and tortured by his enemies that retuned for revenge. He forgave them all and said he had deserved what had happened to him. – Peter Worthington, CEO
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