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About Hollister:
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Ben was born in the UK, while his parents were vacationing. Both his parents are from Canada. He is estranged from both of them. Both his parents are doctors. He has two sisters. He lives on a trust and occasionally works with Perry Hollingsworth on climate-related projects. Hollister has won 24 awards in 5 years. including 17 CyberGuard of the Month awards. He recently won CYBERGUARD-OF-THE-YEAR for 2025. He speaks 4 languages. FOOD: Ben likes Italian beef Pasta; DRINK: Hawaiian Punch (Stevia Brand) and Bottled Water.

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OTHER:

Ben loves CLASSICAL MUSIC – his favorite song is “CLASSICAL GAS” by Mason Williams (1968). He thanked Peter Worthington for introducing him to the song a few years ago.

“I can’t believe such a great piece of music ever existed!…”

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Hollister is not of fan of the Americas. He like Europe a little better. He is Methodist but says he has never gone to Church. He has many friends at work (Chapter 7 and 9). He hates social media. He speaks English, Spanish, French and German. He wears a size 14 E shoe. He has no girlfriend or boyfriend. His friends say he is timid and very generous. Ben was recently ‘outed’ by a paid girlfriend and CyberGuard 15 Hector Pacheco in late May 2025. He now admits being a closeted gay male . He does not drink alcohol. OTHER: Height: 6’1 (1.82 M)) Weight: 178 lbs. (81 K); Hair: Blk; Eyes: Grey / Nickname: Benny

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MISC: FAVORITE MOVIE: QUIZ SHOW (1994)
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Ben’s Bio was written by HW Associate Enrique Santos and approved by Hollister in 2024 and updated in 2026.

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BEN HOLLISTER’S BLOG/MAIL MAY CONTAIN SENSITIVE /

VULGAR OR ADULT LANGUAGE – READ WITH CAUTION

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BEN HOLLISTER WRITES THAT HE HATES HIS LIFE ~ LGBC CONTENT

“Many people in the world say that ‘life is cruel’ .. Well, it is very true, but it is especially cruel for a man like me. People have told me all my life that I am ‘fortunate’ and that I ‘have it made’.. Well, they are not living inside of me. I still wish I had never been born. The day I looked into the mirror and had to tell myself that I was a homosexual. It made me cry. I felt like dying inside of me. My parents accused me of ‘choosing my lifestyle’ when they found out I was a gay man. They even told me to leave, and ‘not return’. They have never spoken to me since that day in 2013. I was 19 years old. So I pretended to be a straight man all my life. Everyone thought I was because I was so masculine. In college, high school, everyone thought I was heterosexual. So I played along. I had dates with many girls, but I could not have sex with them. It repulsed me. So when I dated girls I told them I was joining the priesthood just to avoid sex with them. I hated lying to them. But one of them found out I was gay. She outed me with a little help from a work colleague that did not know her intentions. That was one of the worst days of my life – and now everyone at work knows I am gay. I lost practically all my straight friends. They felt betrayed by me. I truly hate being gay. I hate it. I’ve asked God so many times why I was born like this, because I certainly did not ‘choose to be gay’… who in the world wants to be gay??? That’s a terrible way live with people pointing fingers at you, and thinking the unspeakable about you. I went to see 10 different psychologists and counselors between the ages of 16 and 29 years. I certainly had the money. None of them helped me. None. Most of them told me ‘I should accept myself as I am’. I thought of living a double life – one with getting married to a girl, while sneaking out at night with guys. But it was wrong and unfair to the girl to do that. Besides, I can’t have sex with women. It makes me feel like vomiting. I have had sex with guys – secretly since I was 15. The problem was – I liked it. I loved it. I could not believe how good and comfortable it felt inside of me. Then, afterwards, I felt miserable and guilty. I have even thought of suicide a few times because I felt so low and ashamed like my parents made me feel. How in the world can I love something about me that I hate outside of me? People say I am very good looking. Handsome. I have money. Money is not a problem for me. But I would trade all my money – all my good looks and I would throw everything away – if I could be a heterosexual. The only ‘good’ thing about my life that is going well is my new group of gay friends. They are so nice to me and have offered me any support I need and my two big bosses here are some of the kindest men I have ever met. Since then I have only ’hook up’ with one of them – Mitch Jordan. My second is coming in March with CyberGuard 15. And Both of my bosses – Peter and Perry are gay. We have 6 directors here – and all of them are gay. I never will forget what one of them said to me 5 years ago – Director David Edison. He said “there’s nothing gay about being gay”. He’s so right. My gay life is a misery. It makes me wonder why gays like Mitch Jordan or Peter and Perry are happy, yet I am not. If you are gay here – where I work – they say you are a ‘mirrored male’ or a ‘mirrored female’ – meaning you are attracted to the forms and images seen in a mirror – your own kind. I have urges to have sex with another man by his looks, his scent, his voice, and his genitals. I can’t do that with a woman. I wish I could. My current psychologist says to me: ‘Its not your fault. God made you this way. Read the bible about marriage, and you will find out it was not made for everyone’. He said to me that I am ‘special’. He tries to comfort me. I understand. That is his job. So I will – one day – I will open my heart and ask God why I was born into a world – where my body, soul and spirit does not understand my sexuality. I practically cry many nights just thinking about how much I love – and hate my sexual persona. Some of the things I have heard and read about gays are disgusting. The HW spiritualist once said to me: “.. you will find ‘disgusting’ on both sides of the aisle’ – meaning to me you find evil people everywhere – not just on one side pretending to ‘righteous‘. But like I have told my supporters many times – I don’t give a stinking bad apple about the money or my good looks. I just wish I could have been born like my imperfect and sometimes hard to understand father – even though he can’t see me with his eyes – for what I am. But at least he’s straight, unlike me. – Ben Hollister

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